Three little words and a question why?

Worst thing to happen in the whole life.

Why??????????????????????????????????

Take me away, forever away. To the land of calmness, push me into loving hands and do it hard.

Where is light? I wonder if it's weeping somewhere. ©Akira Yamaoka

Removed from all the substances of the happiness, I'm bound to stretch my existence into nothingness far away.

I've lost my path, distressed, broken up to the core, my soul is made of the splintered glass, my heart is made of sutures... it's been approximated through and through.

Rough as life might be, I accepted to fight it each time, I faced another critical situation, but now, but now, I've been swept off my feet, I'm falling into eternal darkness, while my body is cracking down in agony.

DOUSHITE?? NANDE?? NANIKARA?

Did I merit this? Do I deserve this? I've been working hard as ever, I've been treating you as hard as I ever can do, Nonetheless you deposed me... Well, it's not your fault, by no means no, but anyway, I'm dying, weeping, dreaming, screaming. How come all the things that had value for me perish so all of a sudden into complete emptiness, how to forget this great part of our lives which has given lots of warmth to both of us.

When I was in love, I accepted you, I did everything just not to hurt your feelings, just to prevent you from suffering, my love, so that you could live up to the moment you could find a special person right for you, but... wasn't it me who has been this person all along? Hasn't it been the most happy time in our lives while being together?

Wasn't it you who swore in a poem, that only death could separate us and the death is limited by life? And what now? When a slight change in your mind and your heart has occured, you're ready to throw me away instead of trying to make it softer for me in some way. You mock at me, as if happy with my misery. As if your goal is to show all your sincere hatred towards me, the unworthy scumbag.

But that's not what your heart says, baby... take some mitigation on my strained soul. I'm ever more tired, I've got a whole bunch of questions and things to carry on, there are many people, who I am responsible for.

So please, even if your heart proves to have no love at all, even if what you do know is a sweet revenge for what? Let Skies decide what. But at least you could have some mercy... kinda the way I had towards you when you needed it, when the most thing you needed was my love. Yes, I loved Zera that time, but hey, didn't I make it all my best to make you feel more comforted? Isn't it through these entire one and a half years, that I wanted you to be happy and devoted substantial part of my free-time to you?

"So you think, you can love me and leave me to die? No, baby, can't do this to me baby, just gonna get out, just gonna get right out of here" ©Queen

Why betray all we had, why make my pain absolute? Why not try to avoid shard edges?

Well, you know, if you feel hard about it, I'm always by your side to give a helping hand... Don't hesitate to use it.

Please, don't let me down now, let the final adjudication be posponed till the vacations. I've really much work to do, but I feel somehow parallysed (and so surprised :/).

I hope that your worn out soul still disposes of some true love and compassion. My saint baby, I beleive in you... And I do love you, more than ever, more than you loved me...

Let's play this game vice versa, shall we?